Wednesday, April 08, 2009

The End of Life as I know it :(

The last day of college came and went. No one shed tears, everyone was busy taking photos, signing tees, talking, laughing, without any care for the world, happy to just spend time with their friends. I was in that crowd too, talking and laughing with my friends. Maybe it was a good thing everybody forgot the fact that college life was over.
In the last four years, I've learnt a million things and met a lot of really nice people I hope to keep in touch with for the rest of my life.
It's just not possible to explain. It's like the end of an era. You just have to turn the page to the next chapter and get working on cracking it. It's something i really dont want to do. I've never been a stranger to change, but this time, i'm terrified of it. It seems like a large monster waiting to gobble up my life as I know it, and regurgitate a new one, with a sparkling new pen and notepad, which reminds me of our Project Lead coming over to my cubicle to give us a complimentary pen and pad. That gesture signified something, because I never got anything for free in college. We paid for everything, but we had loads of fun. But then, in office, I get free pens and gym time whenever i want, but life is far from being a party. No familiar smiling faces, no crowding up the canteen for food tokens (call it the cafeteria now), no throwing your bag on your favourite table and chewing on Melody chocolate that the cashier gives you instead of change, no more noises that can help drown out any laughter that you might wanna indulge in, no more bunking classes and still managing to get that all-important 75% attendance, i could do this for quite a while.
It's true for everyone, all 4th yr students. Everybody moves on. Some look back, some stay back, some others brood abut it and write posts like this one, some just forget about it in the hope of finding a better place to live, cos they didnt really have a good time. But for most of them, I can safely say that it surely would have been the most influential 4 years, a time that shaped them into what they are now, transformed them from completely lost 17 year olds to sensible and hopefully responsible grown-ups.
I guess i'm not looking at the bright side. Life is probably just starting. I'll probably be glad that i get to go out on weekend vacations, earn my own money and spend it the way i want, get to meet loads of new people and learn loads of new stuff from them in my own way, nobody gives me assignments, marks or attendance. But thats really not the point, I dont wanna get out of college! I dont want the party to end! Life was too good, the uncertainity that i now face looks nothing like what i want to do, and scares me no end.
Thats about the most brooding i want to do. It's party time! Farewell, a couple or more exams, and then it's the biggest vacation of my life. I'm making sure that time doesnt go down the drain.
To all my batchmates, i say, "I will miss you". To everyone who's past this, i say, sorry if i got you missing college days again. To juniors, i say, enjoy every second and make every moment a memorable one, but don't really worry about 4th year and leaving college and stuff, there's a lot to do before that!

2 comments:

mRED said...

Touching.
I know I'm gonna miss college days but right now I dont experience any emotions. I guess college ended a long time back for me. The times when I was irregular to college and used to bunk for weeks together, those days were literally the times when I've never missed college, and this is just an extension of it.

When reality hits, it will hit hard. Glad that its bitten you now. Easier and sooner to get over it :)

Cheerio! Cya around !

Ranjith said...

forgetting the nostaliga part... yo u really took me back to cbit.. i would've not remembered the cashier giving melodies... and 75%.. and then some many other other things!! thankyou :)

apt comparision btw clg n office!